enlightenment

ahhhh.. long break.. swine flu.. broken thumb.. i have nothing to do.. or perhaps i must say i have things to do that i dont wanna do.. so i am doing nothing !

but yes, i love to write.. so i have decided to blog.. i am sitting like a lazy duck.. well, are there any duck that aint lazy?? hmmm.. i must correct myself n say that i am sitting like a duck.. period!

a rather interesting thought came across me mind.. i was trying to decide whether am lazy or is it that i should just lay all my procrastination tendencies on my ill-fate? coz i know, that in the long run, i might have to suffer coz of it.. but then, whats ill-fate? what is ill or good in fate? what is fate? since nothing is predecided or accurately predictable in true essence, i think i have to discard the possibility of anything called fate!

a line i heard somewhere recently impressed me to no end. in that episode,a very possessive protective mom always stays with her girl child n they share a brilliant chemistry. the kid never lies to her mom. the mom says to someone, "wouldnt the world be a much better place if everybody had this feeling that their mom is looking over their shoulders???". i loved that line. but then i asked myself, is that motherly figure required??? dont we all have an inner self that is scared when we cross dark alleys? aint that the same inner being who makes us tensed when we do something which we know is wrong? who is that person in us?? my flatmates have been in a very funny mood lately.. lol.. no disprespect, its an interesting sequence of events of course , but its funny.. we read excerpts from a book on living life the right way.. its called "a new earth" or sumthing. then there are Bhagwad Gita sessions.. there are a lot of deliberations about attaining something along the lines of Nirvana.. it has been a very intriguing thought process for half of us.. having gone through a lot of indulgence in life thats nowhere near nirvana, i feel a tingling sensation at the thought of enlightenment! :D

enlightenment i guess is like the gabbar figure moms use to scare their kids to sleep i guess. it hardly ever comes to anyone! we guys are like veeru n jai.. :P we are going for gabbar.. or for enlightenment.. :P

anyways, moving on, when i think abt it, i guess enlightenment is like an unacheivable destination for the poor inner self of ours.. unreachable, coz we are never detached from the outer self of ours, the embodiment of all our worldly exposure n egos n desires. probably unless n until the exterior n the interior r entirely aligned to the same goal, it will remain a far cry.. i have never come across a person in my life who is completely detached from the very urges that the exterior calls for.. i havent seen a black swan either.. so i believe in neither.. :)

so i guess enlightenment is bullshit..

enough for now.. more laters when i, god forbid, break more bones.. :D